Love this song, love this band, had to share!

PLEASE read the lyrics as the song plays...

I'm a wandering soul
I got no place of my own
Well I got nothing to give
Well I got nothing to show for it
And I'll be wondering on, for all my years
What I become no one could know

If you're feeling what I'm feeling c'mon
All you soul searching people c'mon

And I got something to say my friends
I will never lay down without a fight
And when I die it will be the day
When every one of my wrongs will be made right
Only times gonna heal my pain
Lord knows the mistakes I will make
Yeah there'll be peace on my soul someday
Reconciled I'll be on my way

And I'll be wondering on, for all my years
What I become no one can say

If you're feeling what I'm feeling c'mon
All you soul searching people c'mon
Oh no, if you're feeling what I'm feeling c'mon
All you soul searching people c'mon

And I'll be wondering on, for all these years
What I become no one could know
If you're feeling what I'm feeling c'mon
All you soul searching people c'mon

This Present Darkness

I'm so sorry blogging world for my absence from you. I could probably think of every excuse in the book for why my writing has been lacking- but I think I'd rather be honest and say, it just hasn't been a priority lately. Life is different from the last time I wrote here. A lot has happened. Mostly good, some bad, and all of it highly uninteresting to anyone who isn't me, so I shall not ramble on. Instead I'd like to share a book with you. Yes, with everything that happens in my life I will always manage to find time to read a good book. As a matter of fact, its not an unusual occurrence to see me planted in a tucked away coffee shop with a chai tea latte and four different books on my lap- all of which I am currently reading. So yes- I love literature. I could eat it for every meal and be sustained for life.
For the past few weeks I have been heavily engrossed in a Christian fiction book entitled "This Present Darkness". For the most part, I tend not to like "Christian fiction" as it can often be cheesy and a bit cliche, but this book is most definitely an exception. It may not ever be considered a work of literary genius, but its message will forever haunt me. The novel touches on the concept of spiritual warfare and its effect on humanity. Sometimes we get so engrossed in our own little worlds, that we forget Christ tells us there is currently a war being waged for our souls everyday. I would be foolish to think my everyday doubts, my negative thoughts, my poor body image, or my anxious heart were not do to the whisperings of Satan and his legion of demons. Have you ever felt that feeling of dread wash over you as if out of no where? Have you ever had a day where you do nothing but harp on yourself all day long? Have you ever made yourself sick over worry? These thoughts and feelings do not come from the Lord. And when we are engrossed in such emotions or negativity we often feel distant from God- it is usually the time we feel least like praying or reading The Word. But this book has reminded me that Satan CANNOT be in the presence of prayer. When I am on my knees in prayer I am unable to keep my mind glued on what Satan is feeding me.
I'm sure it is no coincidence that while I'm reading this book I experience a day where I feel totally and utterly attacked. Today has been filled with worry, negative body image thoughts, and lies upon lies. I have felt anxious, sad, depressed, and angry... and I know my loving God is not responsible for this. So I'm fighting back. If Satan wants to wage war, then lets get down and dirty, because I ain't goin without a fight!

Ephesians 6:12-18
"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints."

Today I got the urge to paint my kitchen this color blue.
Finished product pictures coming soon....

Earlier I was telling my awesome Rock N' Roll loving Uncle about my experience at the Joan Jett concert and how I managed to get front and center out of several hundred crazed fans. He then made me laugh when he said I reminded him of the girl Sammy Hagar sings about in his song "Heavy Metal" -

"Tight pants and lipstick
She's riding on razor's edge
She holds her own against the boys
Yea, cuts through the crowd just like a wedge
Ohh, can you feel the static
So many contacts being made
We've got up front fanatics
Tearing down the barricade
To reach the stage
Can you feel the rage "

Take a wild guess who this is....

4th of July Escapades- take one!

WOW! Its been a crazy four days, but also some of the best four days I've had in a long time.

I dont think I realized just how much I needed a girls trip away until I actually took one. And while I'm on the subject- Let me just say I have some of the BEST girlfriends anyone could ever ask for!!!! (special shout out to Kalie and Jamie... love you both!)

Our girls weekend getaway consisted of four days of pure adventure and bliss- but of course four whole days is too much to cover in one blog post, so I'm splitting it up. And while it would probably make the most sense to start with day 1 of our adventure, I simply MUST start with day 4- the much anticipated JOAN JETT CONCERT!!!!

Thats right, yesterday the girls and I spent a total of 9.5 hours at the Del Mar Fairgrounds waiting anxiously to see the greatest female rock n' roll legend of all time.

The first part of our afternoon was spent eating crappy fair food, going on sketchy rides that spin and twirl you around until you think your jumbo order of fried onion rings might come back up, and of course engaging in some intense people watching. In the blink of an eye 4 o'clock managed to roll around, which meant it was time to get in line for the 9:30pm showing of Joan Jett and The Blackhearts. To our surprise there was already a young woman in line, but we were happy to be the lucky second. After about an hour of waiting the three of us had made an adorable group of fellow Joan Jett fan friends and before we knew it, all six of us had spread out a blanket, whipped out some yummy snacks to share, and were chatting, laughing, and playing games to pass the time. Five hours later the gates opened and the six of us ran to the stage to secure our spot. Initially I found myself behind some of the women we had waited with, but 30 min before the show started Karen turned around and told me to switch spots with her. I politely declined, but she explained that this was her 30th Joan Jett concert in which she has always had front row... and it was now my turn. HOW AMAZING IS THAT?!?! Minutes before the show started I somehow found myself pressed up against the gate front and center of the stage- no one in front of me except Joan Jett herself..... AHHHHH!!!! It was beyond surreal!

I screamed, shouted, and hollered during her entire 90 min set as I watched her rock out on her guitar, sing like a crazy woman, and sweat all over the stage.

Unfortunately, cameras and videos were not allowed on the concert grounds, so therefore the only pictures I was able to get were from my phone. Excuse the poor quality, but enjoy the greatness that is Joan Jett.....

(and yes, I was THIS close to the stage!!!)
I love this picture even though its blury because Joan is smiling.

Me and my new Joan Jett fan friends!! Love ya girls- it was awesome rockin out and sharing that experience with you all!

And last but not least, this afternoon I happened to come across a video from last night's concert that someone took from their cell phone. I wish I could have recorded my own videos from the front row, but this will have to do- its still exciting watching it and knowing I was in that crowd singing along!