Thursday, December 17, 2009

Final Exams

I hate school finals.
I hate studying and cramming and feeling as if I've not done nearly enough.
I hate the thought that somehow a grade is a kind of determinate for how intelligent, worthy or valuable of a human being I am.
I hate that my best always seems to feel inadequate in my own eyes.
I hate my tendency to be self critical and overly anxious.
So today I embrace ambivalence- determined not to let a simple test denote my worth.
If I've left this semester with a greater knowledge than that which I had before, I consider that a success.

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