Monday, January 26, 2009

Desire of my heart

Alright guys, ever since I posted the blog about "dating" I've had several friends approach me and voice their opinion on the matter even though I never asked for it. I dont mean to be rude, but my blog is not a place where people can read about whats going on in my life and criticize it as if it were their own. I've been extremely open and vulnerable when writing my entries and if you disagree with what I have to say or how I'm feel regarding something, then by all means dont read it. When in came to the "dating" blog, I wrote it after a long and frustrating night and as a result my thoughts were quite raw, emotional, and jumbled... but also completely honest. Unfortunately, due to the negative response I received I removed the entry from my blog out of annoyance. For those of you who didnt have the opportunity to read it, I basically just took a moment to vent my frustration with dating and my desire to simply find the man God has for me and settle down into marriage and family life. I realize that not everyone shares my desire to get married at a young age, but just because I dont want to be single until I'm 30, doesnt mean I dont know how to be alone, or that I'm discontent with the life I have. God places different desires on different hearts... mine is to get married young and have a family, and there is NOTHING wrong with that. Maybe I seem overly anxious in wanting to do so, but to be honest I am anxious for that to happen. I know God has a plan for my life, and if He doesnt want me to meet someone until I'm much older, thats ok with me because I know God knows best, but I dont appreciate being told by friends that I'm being ridiculous for wanting what I want. This little incident almost made me want to stop blogging, but thanks to my wonderful sister's advice, I've realized that doing so would be allowing the negative responses I received to get to me... and that simply is NOT going to happen! I refuse to make apologies for who I am.

"...As we grow older, our desire matured into a longing to be pursued, desired, and wanted as a woman. 'Why am I so embarassed by the depth of my desire for this?' asked a young friend just the other day. We were talking about her life as a single woman, and how she loves her work but would much rather be married. Your a woman, there is nothing wrong with this. As some core place, maybe deep within, perhaps hidden or buried in her heart, every woman wants to be seen, wanted, and pursued. We want to be romanced."
~Captivating by Stasi Eldridge

2 comments:

Bri and John said...

***Bursting with pride****
Love you so much Em, and I'm delighted to see you content with knowing God is in control. Keep bringing the desires of your heart to Him.....don't worry about what others think of those desires.

Kayla said...

Em, did i say something that offended you? please talk to me if i did. i called you because i love you and wanted to hear about what's going on in your life. i want to talk more! love you. xoxo