My Many Contradictions

I'm secure in who I am in Christ, yet I'm constantly insecure in who I am as a woman.

I desire less, yet I crave more.

I'm smart and capable, yet I doubt my own abilities.

I make people laugh, yet I'm dull and boring most of the time

I desperately seek after the Lord daily, yet I feel my attempts are somehow never enough

I love others easily, yet constantly question the love of others

I strive to be an eternal optimist, yet I'm the most pessimistic person you'll ever meet

I'm content with my life, yet I want my life to mean more

I'm energetic and always up for anything, yet I'm the biggest hermit this world will ever know

I trust the Lord's plan, yet I fight Him for control daily